a story worth remembering\\we skip the goodbyes *sometimes its hard to express in words*

It's been a week since my last post when we had our "break" from exam and school, i.e September holidays. This entire week had been spent studying; hopefully it helps, hopefully it allows me to understand more of what i don't know before the big exam, A's. I am just trying to be optimistic. Don't even want to countdown the number of days left to A's. You could say that i may be living in self denial but i am not. Some people study well under stress but i don't and i can't. Had been thinking a lot and having sleepless nights recently. Realised i have made a lot of mistakes that i can't correct now. It's all but over. How i wish we could write our own life story in pencil so that we could erase the parts that we made mistakes in. But unfortunately, we are rather engraving the story of our lives and there is no possible way that we can change what we've done. This is where people start to fall off track of their goals due to a wrong move and give up on life. Even the friends and people around me realised this and experienced it. Ironically, though people realised that a wrong carving on their picture does not damage the whole picture, they still give up on it halfway. Mistakes can sometimes make the situation and outcome better, just that people don't usually perceive it that way. A wrong carving on a piece of art may change the entire framework or ambience of the painting but a new and more beautiful piece of art can sometimes be formed as a result. Strange rite? i have been thinking of all these in times when i am somewhat desperate. Exams are drawing closer and closer to me and i feel that i cannot cope with the stress. Maybe i have made a wrong move somewhere and the result may not be what i expected and hoped it will be but the only thing that i can do now is probably to change that piece of art that life has installed for me to my own masterpiece and perhaps, a better one.