a story worth remembering\\we skip the goodbyes *sometimes its hard to express in words*

Yuda at 11:40 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

5 years in this room already. 240 hours spent in this room. Of course i will miss it. The memories that are going to be left behind. So far i have taken 3 major exams, countless performances all backed by the ambience of this room. My mood in school today is not that good cuz i have been dreading this hour today. It was pouring heavily even when i made my way there. The alley seem exceptionally dark today when i walk along it. It was a tough decision. Really a tough one that left me pondering for days, crying at night in bed but nevertheless, studies are still my priority. So, after a long discussion and advices from my friends and family, decided to put my music life to a halt. This will be my last month going to thomson plaza every tuesday for music lesson :/ i will try to continue my music studies after NS 3 years later. But for now, STUDIES!!

Yuda at 7:58 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

i have finally come to a decision. Because of my atrocious results for block test 1!! i really need more time to study. And end my commitments or else i will get back the same results of block test 2 and prelims :/ it is going to be the last term of ODAC and after that i will be free from all my commitments and really concentrate to study. Although this may not be wad i hoped for all along, it is definitely inevitable in my life. Tomorrow is going to be the last month of music lesson i am going to have, no exams in june!! i need my time. I am really a bad and lousy person who don't know how to organise my time properly and juggle my commitments well. BId farewell to what people call LIFE in JC and all my time will be devoted to studies. HELLO LIBRARY AND BCC!!

Yuda at 8:56 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

block test 1 is finally over!! after 1 week of attempting to cover all the things that were taught this year and surviving the long mugging sessions, it is finally over. Come to think about it, really regretted on not starting to study earlier before the exam draw near. Really had a very hard time trying to understand what had been taught in 1 week. After the exam today, although i felt more relaxed, i still don have the mood to play at all. Seem to have gotten used to the mugging after each paper lifestyle. It all seem so weird not doing anything productive after school. This may be a good thing though. Simply means that i am getting ready to go into the studying mood again. Don want to talk about block test though... no use crying over spilled milk :/ anyway, went to play bowling, catching up with friends and watching the show 300. It is my first M18 show and its super nice!! must watch!! just came back from home and i am damn tired now.. goodnight everyone and enjoy your much-deserved break (:

Yuda at 11:37 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

it has been 3 long and torturing days of block test!! as block test is at its midpt and all the "able to do" papers are sat for, we still continued mugging. I don know what reason it is for though. Chemistry paper tomorrow has been mentioned that it is only slightly easier than the physics paper set this time. Physics paper is going to be a real killer!! heard news today about only one of the physics teachers managed to do the MCQ set for this exam and he took 30 mins. What is wrong with their brains?? if only one physics teacher who is so experienced took 30 mins to finish the MCQs, as only students, how many questions can we possibly attempt? Let's not talk about doing it... they are like just going to let us sit for a paper that we have studied so hard for and make us lose our interest in the subject by getting a U grade for blocks? Sat down with shirley and ziyi today to do chem until we want to faint and really give up on the subject. Not talking about the part that we got high because the questions were simply toooooo weird to understand. Randomly laughing and ziyi with his usual "jokes" which was quite funny when we are in that state of mind. BCC is really quite a good place to study though except for the man that couldn't stop kicking against the wall which got us so irritated. Okay!! enough of ratting already. Must hit my chem books already!! 2 more papers!!

Yuda at 8:31 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

This is probably going to be the last entry until the end of blocks!! hahah.. kinda excited today!! partly because today is the 18th!! One more month before happy 18!! secondly, i don know why i am excited about blocks! maybe its because i want it to pass and get it out of my head. This march holidays are nothing of the sort that you want for a break. Seriously, its been one week of studying and only studying. Actually no also la.. if you want to bring up the fact that i watched 2 movies in this short span of 7 days. But most of the time was spent mugging and trying to catch up on what have been left behind. All the information that went in on one ear and came out from the other. Talking about catching up, i still have a lot of things to catch up on. One important one is friends!! it has been so long since i went out with a lot of people. Everybody's schedule is very different. Anyway, if you ask me how prepared i am for this block test. I can safely say, less than 50%. Tomorrow's paper is going to be my favourite paper i tink. That is the only paper that doesn't require much of studying. 1 word to describe the pre-block test feeling, "SCREWED!!". Got to rest early today or else i will be too tired to do the paper tomorrow. LUCKS FOR BLOCKS EVERYONE (:

Yuda at 9:46 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

its now less than 48 hours to welcome our most dreaded enemy - block test. i can say that after much encouragement given by my most beloved friends, i really picked myself up and started studying for this test. I know that given such a short span of time, i really cannot cover a lot but i really did all best to catch up already. Yesterday's overnight mugging session at xiuhui's house did not turn out to be an effective one. Probably because there were too many distractions and that all of us were too tired. So, only managed to finish one physics paper before knocking out. Luckily studied the whole day at TP library to make up for the loss time. Can you believe it?? i actually watched 2 movies during this "holiday". Music and lyrics on tues and just follow law today. Tomorrow will be the last day to really study and i shall see what i can accomplish tomororow. Will try my very best!! Just want to say thank you very much to all those out there that encouraged me (: feeling very sleepy now.. shall go and sleep soon. Slept only for 4 hours in 2 days. Goodnight everyone!!

Yuda at 10:00 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

woah!! back from another overnight mugging session. Today not very productive though. Only managed to complete the physical chemistry worksheet and read up on a bit of organic chem. Looks like my mugging attitude is slowly coming back already. I have decided to stop touching maths for a while; until i cleared physics and chemistry before i start touching maths. Friday is going to be the big day to decide whether i will pass or fail physics. Having consultation with miss huang to help to salvage the situtation. It is really sad that i have to ask another teacher instead of my own for extra lessons isn't it?? It has been damn tiring mentally to study these few days. I just found out that i can never study at home alone; i will end up browsing websites on the computer, increase the number of entries on my blog, turn on the TV to see if there is another tremor in singapore etc. Just can't seem to study by myself. Have to study with friends or even maybe study alone outside. It is now mid-week and a few days away from the start of blocks. Already received news that blocks for physics and chem is going to be a killer. So, .... Hope i survive this week to type another entry before blocks! To all, good luck studying for blocks!!

Yuda at 12:38 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

dear readers, i really need some advice now. So please read this post and tag on my tagboard!! school work is driving me mad and i haven start revising for my coming block test next week. Today i was supposed to study for chem test that is on tomorrow but i ended up spending the whole day stoning and doing only the TJ compre passage. Was packing my bag just now when i found my music exam regristration form that i am supposed to hand up next week. I was comtemplating whether to register for the exam that is in june. The fees is around 200 bucks and i need to say i am not fully prepared physically and mentally for it. Should i sign it?? (1st question) if i sign the form, i was put in more work on my music practices and that means less time for study :/ my studies are atrocious now and i am like failing most of my class test this year. I already wasted my mum's money for learning the grade for a year already and if i say i want to give up now, i would be disappointing her. Wouldn't i? (2nd question) I am feeling really stress now, maybe even feel like giving up on everything in the world. Sometimes i really wish i could just sleep and never wake up; how good would that be? How can i study for blocks when i am not even in the condition. At least give me something to study!! i understand for maths i can do the revision paper to revise, for econs and GP, i can read up more. What about for the sciences?? especially physics when i have such a lousy teacher who doesn't even want to come back during the holidays for extra lessons!! no worksheets and really NOTHING!! i can say that i don understand anything that is taught this year. HOW?? (3rd question) for chem, although there is revision worksheet to do, i don understand all the parts on organic chem! irritating benzene rings, halogens, alkanes, alkenes, arenes, alcohols!! HATE YOU ALL!! i am really feeling damn stressed now!! pls, pls give me some advice.

-a troubled boy

Yuda at 10:42 PM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

sometimes, you could only imagine what if.

sometimes, if you think back and smile.

sometimes, what comes out are memories;

memories of happy times.

but what you can remember most vividly

are always the sad times, the seperation.

The pain that pierce my heart,

the things you did.

Not looking forward to each day,

not waiting for time to pass us by.

The times where each minute each second means my life.

If reality was not to be so cruel,

if love could travel across distances.

If i could force myself to forget all these memories,

Only if.

to someone that i will never forget

Feeling kind of emo today so had to write this post. Sparked off some old memories; sad and happy ones together. The feeling just kept rushing at me. You all might not understand what the above meant, at least to me. But it just felt good writing all of it out. At least to keep as a memory. I should really be starting on revision for blocks now. Goodbye and to all those who are having blocks now, GOOD LUCK!!

Yuda at 8:52 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Group 2 Night-Riders

The eventful group 1

camera whore at esplanade

NIGHT CYCLING 2007

Night cycling marks the end of ODAC activities for term 1 and we have to start studying for block test. We were supposed to rest after school so that we have the energy to do night-cycling but had to go out for my mum's birthday so didn't rest at all!! it had been 28 hours since i last slept if you don't count the 1 hour sleep during chem lecture xp So, night cycling!! i know this may be a model answer but each trip had been a different experience for us!! we had done one recee and one dry run and the route was almost similar. But each trip brings about new discoveries and adventures. I had expected the night cycling activity to be a monotonous one but it was full of events that caught us unprepared. We met up at 2100 plus to start off the activity. It was raining cats and dogs before the night itself and we were so scared that our efforts would go to waste if it were to be cancelled. Thank god it stopped raining already. Set off at around 2300 and we were divided into 3 different groups and moved off at 15 mins interval. Shall not go into the minor details and route though. Firstly, i led my group to a wrong way at around still road :/ so sorry!! then on the way, there were unexpected drivers and strange traffic!! the drivers would park in front of us and stop there, so we had to decide whether to overtake the cars. The traffic lights were weird also as it changed from green to red very fast and we don't have enough time to cross the road. Along the way, we were stopped by group 1 as joshua's bike broke down and miss tay had to give up her bike for him to continue. Had to "dismantle" the bike and fit it into mr liang's car before we can move off. The funniest thing happened at chomp chomp where we locked the bikes and found out that we don't have one of the keys to it. So, had to find ways to open the lock. Called the locksmith which cost us 100 bucks if we were to ask him to come and the lack of availability of services at gas stations. Therefore, had to call our friendly neighbourhood police to cut the lock for us!! Group 1 ended up going behind group 3!! Along the way there were some minor injuries and dangerous situations where we had to adapt to quickily. Surprisingly, i was not as tired as i was during the dry run and our group ended up getting high and alive when we reach the bike shop again!! Waving the light-sticks and singing songs before going to macs for breakfast and then debrief. The debrief by teachers so surprisingly short though even though so many things happened along the way (: it was really a very different and eventful experience that we had today; dealing with the situations that were thrown at us and un-noticingly enjoying the process to work out the situation. Okay!! it is now ODAC study break and i have to hit my books soon!! going out soon before going lester's house in the evening!! i promise i will start studying tomorrow!! really!!! i need it

Yuda at 10:14 AM