i feel that i am such a failure! a failure that no matter how much effort i put in for the exam, something bad will appear and screw everything up. People may say that lady luck is always not on my side but i don't understand how come my brain can't function properly during major exams. Although i have a fever during the first 2 days of exam, my brain should also be able to function at around 70%. At least answer enough questions for me to pass!! how come?? the same goes for common test. I was studying so hard in the morning and at night but when the tests come by, i will fall sick and do badly for that paper. Why would i say that? its because i got back my physics paper today. Although i didn't expect much to come from it as i didn't manage to finish the paper, i didn't expect to fail that paper. In the end, i got an S. I wanted to ask myself, "why am i so stupid?", "how come i always forgot what i learn during the exam itself??". Although the paper was relatively easy and we were somewhat experienced in doing that kind of questions, i still got most of them wrong. Perhaps i was not suited to take science but that doesn't mean that if one can NEVER take science. This was my mentality when i chose the PCME combi. Maybe i was wrong.. realli wrong. If i could turn back time, i would not choose this combi. Maybe i am realli not that smart enough to take a combi that i could never cope with. I had never done well in science before throughout my sec school life. Anyway, thanks to all the people that cheered me up today after i got back my results, i realli appreciate it (: i am praying veri hard that the school would not be so cruel to let me have a second choice to choose the combi that is more suitable for me. I need to get promoted or else my parents will KILL me. I felt damn guilty not to let them know about this yet. They even planned a trip to hong kong for me already ): i am so sorry to disappoint you all!!!