these few days has been depressing. All the block test results are out. As expected, i did better for my H1 than H2. It all comes to one thing and one conclusion. I can't study science at all. Okay.. i must admit i didn't put in 100% hard work for my sciences but at least i tried. It's really depressing to see that i failed both my sciences again. It really is. I know its no use regretting that i chose PCME instead of going to the arts fac where my heart is, my strength is. I shall stop talking about my lousy results already.

Another thing is about ODAC. I don know is it only me but i feel that ODAC is really getting boring nowadays. Maybe its because this batch of J1s are simply not like us. Always so high during ODAC activities and making the mood fun. Hopefully i am wrong. So far the activities organised were somewhat boring activities and i certainly hope that once the fun activities start, they will be better. In my mind, i am really scared that the following major activities like the OEC and LTC camps will be a failure. The J1 intake so far is only around 20 plus i tink. Considering those who are seriously into ODAC activities. How are we going to have selection camps?? leave it up to fate... this is the last phase of ODAC :/ everything to be sad about. (all these precious moments)

i am starting to think that life's just a waste of time and that there's nothing worth living for. It is simply like an endless cycle of boredom. We keep doing repetitive things for no reason at all. To think that people always believe i am an optimistic person when i am saying all these things....

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