a story worth remembering\\we skip the goodbyes *sometimes its hard to express in words*

friday the 13th. Black friday. The blackest and darkest friday i have been through so far in the many years of my life. In the morning, went to take NAPFA test even though my knee still hurt so much yesterday. All was going smoothly as i cleared the stations with A's. Then came shuttle run which was disastrous. Could not brake in time and ended up tumbling and rolling a few rounds before coming to a stop. Wanted to finish running the last station 2.4 but my knee was just hurting too much that i had to stop in the 2nd round and drop out. So disappointed in myself for not completing all the stations!! After that had to go around school limping because of the injury. At 1130 was the release of the PW results. Heard many news about how bad our results were even before they released it. The school average was a pathetic C. With only 8 people in the entire cohort getting a A. To think that when the VP announced the results, she was still smiling away and saying happily that the good news was that everyone passed PW. Maybe she felt that 75% of the people getting A,B or C was a "fantastic" result. What is wrong with her?? Don't she know that people in other JC are having like 66% of the people scoring A for PW. Got a pathetic C in the end. Was so traumitised at the start and simply can't come to the fact that we put in so much hard work and in the end, we ended up getting a C grade.

I may be harsh in my words but i tink its totally stupid to pull their own students results in such a major exam. PW is the only subject that a school can indirectly help their student improve in their A's or even better the school's reputation. And what was the reputation we got again?? the worst results for PW. WHAT A GREAT ACHIEVEMENT IT IS!! 2 years in a row. If the teachers don't change their mentality to be rational in marking their own students scripts, we will probably be getting a hat-trick next year for continuous PW "excellence" award. I am really fired up when typing this post. Not because i got a C pls.. its mainly because i simply can't find a very good reason to moderate our grades down when we are already doing so badly.

The comments given back was totally ridiculous!! especially our WR. For every draft we pass up to her, she would give all sorts of positive comments telling us how good our WR is and that we could get an A. Still showing to other teachers and being even such positive comments. But what did we get back today?? All negative comments for WR from her. I really had the urge to go up and confront her about her comments given but what's the point?? what's done cannot be undone. I feel that i am whining a lot in this post but no choice, i have to blurt it all out or i would have another sleepless night. The best thing of all is what we heard from her. "Blame it on yourselves for your results!!" that was wad she said. The words really pierced my heart. We had spent countless nites doing on our PW stuff and having endless amounts of discussions for this damn subject so that we could get a good grade and now you are accusing us of not working hard enough?? You must be kidding us. Enough of PW and out of my mind you go!! i am not going to continue writing about PW already. Anyway, we let our minds off PW by allowing it to flow away from us by the kallang river today. Had a great team lunch and team debrief though. Thank you so much for helping to do all the PW stuff throughout the course ppl!! i really appreciate it (: we have all done our best already so cheer up okay?? THANKS!! Off to do other stuff already.. bye!