a story worth remembering\\we skip the goodbyes *sometimes its hard to express in words*

Yuda at 11:46 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

2nd time i am blogging the same entry cuz my lousy com restarted again :/ had a really great time today. Thank you all for the presents and birthday wishes. I am 18!! legal to buy alcohol and learn driving!! it was just a usual day at school with more incoming messages which brightens up my day and random gifts from friends!! After school was LTC dry run which ran quite smoothly except for the unexpected scenarios. Went to pack the stores after the dry run and when i came back, OMG!! the ODACers were gathering at the table in front of the locker area with a cake!! i seriously almost cried in front of them. Was so touched as they sang the birthday song to me. THANK YOU ODACers!! LOVE YOU ALL!! after which we went to pastamania in toa payoh for dinner and suddenly, weihao and jason came in with a bottle of absolute vodka. The girls went off after the dinner while the guys drank and talked among ourselves at an emo spot at the garden. It was really fun as everyone got high and started laughing. Jason and lester's faces were so red after drinking!! went to took a photo in the toilet as the people there stared at us. Really had a great day!! thank you all!! my cat high buddies, my beloved ODACers and all of my friends!!

my ODAC buddies!!

will upload more pics when i get them!! thanks!!

Yuda at 11:56 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

blink!! in a flash.. another year in my life is going to be gone. Unknowingly, i have came to this cruel and hectic world and actually walked on it for 17 years. Life is really that fascinating. People usually do some things without knowing that they have done it. Perhaps at this time, people will say that i am beginning on a new phase in my life. But, nothing has changed and nothing is going to change. I am still going to be me. It had been great and fun going through 17 years of my life with ups and downs, various relationships, high points and low points.. everything you can think of.

As people get older, many things tend to happen. But more towards the negative side. Many troubles and problems to handle, life becomes more hectic, people become harder to understand. I tink that one of the best things that happened to me last year was joining SAINTSODAC. Forging strong bonds and friendship within the club, doing things as one and suffering as one too!! Not forgetting knowing many new friends who became part of my dull and boring life studying in school. Being the last post i am going to write when i am still 17, i am going to dedicate this song to all my friends who had been there for me in my life. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
-Love, Yuda

Mcfly - I've Got You

The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
So hold me 'til the sun burns out
I won't be lonely when I'm down

'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer

I never doubted you at all
The stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall? (by and watch them fall)
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear

'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
Yeah when I got you
Oh to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together

Looking in your eyes
Hoping they won't cry
And even if they do
I'll be in bed so close to you
Hold you through the night
And you'll be unaware
But if you need me I'll be there

Yeah I got you
Oh to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
Yeah when I got you to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together

Yuda at 8:46 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

friday the 13th. Black friday. The blackest and darkest friday i have been through so far in the many years of my life. In the morning, went to take NAPFA test even though my knee still hurt so much yesterday. All was going smoothly as i cleared the stations with A's. Then came shuttle run which was disastrous. Could not brake in time and ended up tumbling and rolling a few rounds before coming to a stop. Wanted to finish running the last station 2.4 but my knee was just hurting too much that i had to stop in the 2nd round and drop out. So disappointed in myself for not completing all the stations!! After that had to go around school limping because of the injury. At 1130 was the release of the PW results. Heard many news about how bad our results were even before they released it. The school average was a pathetic C. With only 8 people in the entire cohort getting a A. To think that when the VP announced the results, she was still smiling away and saying happily that the good news was that everyone passed PW. Maybe she felt that 75% of the people getting A,B or C was a "fantastic" result. What is wrong with her?? Don't she know that people in other JC are having like 66% of the people scoring A for PW. Got a pathetic C in the end. Was so traumitised at the start and simply can't come to the fact that we put in so much hard work and in the end, we ended up getting a C grade.

I may be harsh in my words but i tink its totally stupid to pull their own students results in such a major exam. PW is the only subject that a school can indirectly help their student improve in their A's or even better the school's reputation. And what was the reputation we got again?? the worst results for PW. WHAT A GREAT ACHIEVEMENT IT IS!! 2 years in a row. If the teachers don't change their mentality to be rational in marking their own students scripts, we will probably be getting a hat-trick next year for continuous PW "excellence" award. I am really fired up when typing this post. Not because i got a C pls.. its mainly because i simply can't find a very good reason to moderate our grades down when we are already doing so badly.

The comments given back was totally ridiculous!! especially our WR. For every draft we pass up to her, she would give all sorts of positive comments telling us how good our WR is and that we could get an A. Still showing to other teachers and being even such positive comments. But what did we get back today?? All negative comments for WR from her. I really had the urge to go up and confront her about her comments given but what's the point?? what's done cannot be undone. I feel that i am whining a lot in this post but no choice, i have to blurt it all out or i would have another sleepless night. The best thing of all is what we heard from her. "Blame it on yourselves for your results!!" that was wad she said. The words really pierced my heart. We had spent countless nites doing on our PW stuff and having endless amounts of discussions for this damn subject so that we could get a good grade and now you are accusing us of not working hard enough?? You must be kidding us. Enough of PW and out of my mind you go!! i am not going to continue writing about PW already. Anyway, we let our minds off PW by allowing it to flow away from us by the kallang river today. Had a great team lunch and team debrief though. Thank you so much for helping to do all the PW stuff throughout the course ppl!! i really appreciate it (: we have all done our best already so cheer up okay?? THANKS!! Off to do other stuff already.. bye!

Yuda at 10:45 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

these few days has been depressing. All the block test results are out. As expected, i did better for my H1 than H2. It all comes to one thing and one conclusion. I can't study science at all. Okay.. i must admit i didn't put in 100% hard work for my sciences but at least i tried. It's really depressing to see that i failed both my sciences again. It really is. I know its no use regretting that i chose PCME instead of going to the arts fac where my heart is, my strength is. I shall stop talking about my lousy results already.

Another thing is about ODAC. I don know is it only me but i feel that ODAC is really getting boring nowadays. Maybe its because this batch of J1s are simply not like us. Always so high during ODAC activities and making the mood fun. Hopefully i am wrong. So far the activities organised were somewhat boring activities and i certainly hope that once the fun activities start, they will be better. In my mind, i am really scared that the following major activities like the OEC and LTC camps will be a failure. The J1 intake so far is only around 20 plus i tink. Considering those who are seriously into ODAC activities. How are we going to have selection camps?? leave it up to fate... this is the last phase of ODAC :/ everything to be sad about. (all these precious moments)

i am starting to think that life's just a waste of time and that there's nothing worth living for. It is simply like an endless cycle of boredom. We keep doing repetitive things for no reason at all. To think that people always believe i am an optimistic person when i am saying all these things....

field cooking

Yuda at 12:27 AM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

a very tiring 2 days in a row. Since the last time i typed my last post until now, my legs and body are still aching all over. Yesterday was OEC recee at Ubin. Had to wake up like 0800 to go to Ubin. From there, we started walking all around Ubin for around 3 hours before stopping like 15 mins for a break before continuing on with another 3 hours of walk. 3 sets somemore!!! breakfast was the best meal we had at subway! lunch and dinner tasted about the same with sponge cake, bread and mineral water. My legs and knees were aching like crazy after the walk. The weather was terrible too; so warm and humid in the morning before raining hard and heavy in the afternoon where we have to continue the walk in the rain. Emo kids we are. Drenching wet after the rain, we went for solo night recee which was all but interesting. On our way to Punai hut (in the dark), we saw wild boars running across the path in front of us, sending clarissa screaming!! hahah.. heard good news that they are changing the groupings of OEC. That means i won't be standing and emoing alone for 3 hours during OEC!! haven touch my hw this weekend yet. Got to go and study already. BYE!

our lunch (:

Yuda at 1:53 PM